Baby Steps

I took a baby step further into the realm of taking better care of me today.  I started going to counseling. The woman was very nice and I was comfortable with her. She gave me some homework. She wants me to write a letter to my mother telling her how angry I am with her and how she has hurt me. Not to send but to get it all out of me.

She also told me that when I talk about Jay my face lights up and I seem happy but than when I talk about my mother she can see the hurt and anger. Not that I shouldn't be hurt or angry but it is clear that I feel those.

Anyway, I am glad I took this step. I don't want to go back to feeling so sad and stuck in the dark!!!